Shereen Donede's Journal, 02 May 21

not a food related post. but I have pretty severe CPTSD brought on from a rather messed up enmeshed relationship with a narcissistic sibling... I go no contact to manage my environment. some days I can't. today was one of those days. and it reminds me just how controlling this person is and how much control this person had over me for most of my life. if you feel like you're in a relationship with someone that leaves you feeling drained, anxious, confused, panicked and all round generally crap... do some research and protect yourself. narcissism is real and it shatters your beliefs to the core... it takes a long time and a lot of therapy to unwrap and untangle yourself to find your way out. mental health and physical health are equally important!

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528 kcal Fat: 20.22g | Prot: 25.78g | Carbs: 57.72g.   Lunch:  Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables (Including Tomatoes and/or Carrots), Checkers Choice Mayonnaise Lite,  Tuna in Water (Canned), Bakers Provita Ancient Grains Crispbread,  Bananas , Lancewood Double Cream Strawberries & Cream Yoghurt. more...

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Toxic people even family can literally drive you sick, not only mentally but physically. Best thing you can do, is stay as far away from them as possible. Your sanity and health is what is important. I have that type of relationship with a sibling as well. We haven’t spoken in years... 
02 May 21 by member: Fatgirlslim1982
I am sorry that you share the experience. I don't wish it on anyone. I know there are more of us that share the experience without ever truly opening up about it. The sad part is that avoiding the narcissistic person also means losing some other relationships because she won't let her kids have a relationship with me that isn't distorted by whatever version she's told them... And I won't waste my energy trying to defend myself against her tactics. It's exhausting.  
02 May 21 by member: Shereen Donede
I feel you, I got tired of always walking on egg shells. Feeling awful and always feeling attacked. We can’t choose our family... I’m sure your nieces or nephews will grow up to see how she is and won’t believe everything she says. They will form their own opinion when they meet and see you. You have to learn not to care about what toxic people say about you. Worrying and negative thoughts eat you up inside. You know who you are. What you think about yourself is what matters, end of story. 
02 May 21 by member: Fatgirlslim1982
I’ve been watching this YouTube channel on how to cope with narcissists - her name is Dr Ramani Durvasula. She’s given really good advice on how to manage those relationships you can’t escape (blood family). Sending you strength, I know it’s hard ❤️ 
02 May 21 by member: Pollylock1
@polly... I adore Dr Ramani. She's a go-to!!!! 
02 May 21 by member: Shereen Donede
I'm so sorry. I have a precious friend who is married to a narcissist. The abuse is incomprehensible. My heart goes out to her everyday and these people NEVER change. Strongs to you xx 
04 May 21 by member: SwoleMateBunny
Thanks is LCFF. I'm sorry that your friend has that kind of marriage. It must be so hard to live in that! The best thing we can do when we see the narc for who they are, is to empower yourself and educate yourself and build strength through knowledge. It's taken me a year and I'm not quite there yet... But I'm starting to understand the relationship dynamics a lot more clearly and that is helping to alleviate the panic attacks and lasting affects of a CPTSD episode. I'm definitely learning to self manage a lot more. And that helps to be less affected by the tantrums that this person throws.  
05 May 21 by member: Shereen Donede

     
 

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