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Good morning FS friends
Yesterday was a good day. Had a number of errands to run, one which involved going to the local Polish deli, the other Costco. Both these places have more than a few of my trigger foods. Since starting this journey, previous visits had always been layered with an element of resentment, even anger. The Polish deli for instance has amazing baked goods, from pierogies to Napoleons and european cheesecake. Costco, baked goods, jelly bellies and battered/breaded quick cook frozen foods.
You may ask why resentment, why anger? Well, Since starting this lifestyle modification adventure when faced with foodstuffs that in past I would have picked up and enjoyed (usually to excess), I've continued to struggle with the "bah I can't have this because I'm on a diet". Of course that is followed by the "maybe when I'm at goal weight" followed by "no, not even when at goal weight because you cannot stop at just one". Ergo the resentment and anger. Have been so emotionally connected to these things for reward and comfort in past.
Yesterday, no anger, no resentment. It is a choice I have made, not something that was imposed on me. I felt awful when indulging before and it did not serve my physical or emotional health well. My body and brain does not metabolise these things well so it is in my best interest to not go down that path again. A choice, not a requirement.
A big breakthrough mentally and one that I didn't think would ever be possible.
Every day is a new learning.
Over and out
View Diet Calendar, 01 November 2023:
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1128 kcal
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Fat: 26.77g | Prot: 99.44g | Carbs: 138.89g.
Breakfast: Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge, GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla. Lunch: Everything Veggie Salad, Kraft Greek Feta & Oregano Dressing, Strawberries . Dinner: SeaQuest Frozen Bay Scallops, Shrimp, Classico Alfredo Sauce, NuPasta Konjac Spaghetti. Snacks/Other: Iogo Plain Greek Yoghurt 0%, Quaker Instant Oatmeal - Maple & Brown Sugar, Apples. more...
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Very well said... this resonates very strongly with me. It helps to have this kind of understanding.
I'm still working through some of my resentments surrounding food. I sometimes get sad when I can't have a food I used to treat myself with. It was far too often I justified my behaviors. I wasn't making sane choices with many foods! I am getting healthier. Thanks for your post🕊️
01 Nov 23 by member: FoodyDuty
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Sounds awesome. I would love to achieve your level of diet maturity but wonder if it is possible for me. I want to be healthy but eating has become less fun and satisfying. Just one more thing I can't have. Something that was once pleasurable has become monotonous. I am looking for ways to cure that. Not easy for me.
01 Nov 23 by member: -MorticiaAddams
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True Foody. Sad is another one. Grieving the loss of go to comfort foods. In the context of life and having lost near and dear pets and people it seems kind of silly yet is so very real in a different way.
01 Nov 23 by member: Annisworkingonit
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Ongoing struggle Mortician Yesterday happened to be an Aha. Hoping going forward this sticks
01 Nov 23 by member: Annisworkingonit
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01 Nov 23 by member: Healthycurves2023
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Love your health more than you love your treats? Maybe that's a way to think about it.
I'm at a point where I can eat fine at home, but it's hard to be with others who are eating a wider variety.
02 Nov 23 by member: erikahollister
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This is such a great post. Thank you, Ann. What helped me lessen this resentment you are talking about was re-thinking what would be a good occasion to actually buy something like cheesecake. I settled on hosting, if Im going to buy it at all. I used to buy it saying it is “for my kids” or “for my husband” (who loves cheesecake) or “it’s a weekend treat for the family” because it was often, I realized, a cover to bring this home and eat it, too. Now I would buy a small amount that I can be sure will be eaten by my family and guests, and I’ll have a sliver, too, strictly at the table (never any leftovers). So I think of certain treats now as for a “very special occasion involving friends,” and try to keep pretty strict boundaries around what that is. I guess I had to overcome this thought “I don’t need a special occasion to treat myself, I deserve it” as self-sabotage, but also the more seemingly selfless “wouldn’t it be nice to bring it home to hubby and kids” as self-sabotage, too.
02 Nov 23 by member: Agnes Z
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Agnes....great strategy. I will be embracing your way of managing this going forward. Buying by the slice when guests are expected as opposed to the whole cake will certainly resolve the excess on hand thus mut be eaten dilemma. Thank you!
03 Nov 23 by member: Annisworkingonit
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