It was an emotional, challenging week! You know those days when just everything that can go wrong goes wrong? That was the type of week I had. Remembering: It was a bad week, not a bad life. I pushed through all of it and did not feed the emotions with food. Friday was just the straw that broke the camels back. The day started off with a squabble with a close friend about boundaries. :( Then I got stuck in a huge thunder storm and couldn't do half of what I was supposed to do. Getting back to the shop I realized I forgot my tablet in one of the stores I bought stock from. OMG!!! This day just did not light up! Luckily I got my tablet back. That would have been an absolute shit storm. My entire life is on that tablet!!!
BUT I PUSHED THROUGH IT ALL! Had a good cry. Dusted off the tears. Pulled myself together and marched on (WITHOUT FOOD).
Saturday rolls by and what was supposed to be a 10am to 1pm class, turned into a 10am to 3pm class. By this time I am starving! (And exhausted) Went to lock up the school; I forgot my keys at home. NICE LOLA! Fetch my keys; lock up; day is done FINALLY! NOW its 4pm! I just decide, fuck it, and I drive to Pick n Pay and guess what? I buy all the wrong things and binge eat the rest of the evening. VERY DISAPPOINTING! For the rest of the weekend I just stuffed my face, still counting calories and told myself "At least stay in your 1800 range PLEASE!!!!!" I am sure I did not. The scale will tell the truth on Wednesday!
Today is a new day. I screwed up for the first time in 3 weeks and that is something to actually be proud of. Even though I screwed up I didn't break my one rule... NO COCA COLA!!! I didn't have any sugary sodas!!!! That's another small victory.
Yes, I didn't stick to the plan for 2 days, but that does not mean I failed. It just means I lost focus; I stumbled.
So today I am back in the saddle and will just have to work a little harder to make up for the two days I didn't stick to my deficit.
There are still 218 days left in this marathon!
#DisappointedInMyself
