Sharons Victory's Journal, 29 May 19

Confessing the details of my 6 day binge.

Don't ask me why I want to write out what I ate for 6 days that caused such a huge weight gain...but I feel like instead of just writing that I binged I want to actually confess exactly what I did so y'all can know the full extent of what I do when I binge.

One day I woke up and ate a few slices of pizza, then I hiked and went out to a Chinese food buffet afterwards and then I got 2 big scoops of ice cream in a huge waffle cone on my way to the car from baskin robbins...then when I got home I wanted more ice cream so I ate two big bowls of ice cream my brother let me have...then I still wanted more ice cream so drove to baskin robbins and got two pints of ice cream and 4 chocolate dipped ice cream cones to take home and ate ALL of it...

THEN - the next day...I got a dozen donuts...even had one blueberry fritter and one apple fritter in there..and proceeded to eat donuts ALL. DAY. LONG. I would even feel so drowsy during this that I repeatedly fell asleep...but after a nap I'd feel ready to eat more and I continued this cycle all day...nap...eat donut...nap...eat donut. On this day I also ate 3/4 of a cheese ham croissant (that was a bit much for me I couldn't even handle it) THEN my room mate didn't know of my activities and brought me home Dominos cheesy bread...which I felt too full to eat BUT surprised myself after a few hours and proceeded to eat half of one of those (4 servings). OH! And I forgot...on this day I also had two large servings of chickpea pasta with meatballs and pesto alfredo sauce.

The next day I ate all but two slices of a large combination pizza...not thin crust...heavy duty parlor pizza.

So...there ya go...oh...and I ate a few protein bars in there too because I ran out of food.

Am I the only one that does this kind of insane crap? Anybody else????? I feel like it's definitely not normal and I don't know why I do it.

View Diet Calendar, 29 May 2019:
1593 kcal Fat: 91.44g | Prot: 152.72g | Carbs: 54.17g.   Breakfast: Jimmy Dean Fully Cooked Turkey Sausage Patties, Cream (Half & Half), Kroger Whole Eggs (Medium). Lunch: Fried Pork, Food Club Large Egg, Bolthouse Farms Classic Ranch Yogurt Dressing, Denny's Sliced Tomatoes (3 Slices), Cucumber (with Peel), Trader Joe's Shredded Green Cabbage. Dinner: Winky Brand Sugar Free Parfait, Winky Brand Sugar Free Gelatin Dessert, Costco Rotisserie Chicken. Snacks/Other: Cream (Half & Half), Kraft Natural Mozzarella String Cheese, Quest Vanilla Almond Crunch Protein Bar, Seapoint Farms Dry Roasted Edamame - Wasabi. more...

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I'm under orders to be POSITIVE, but I don't want you to feel that you are the only one who does these things. You are definitely not alone. When I've binged, I've usually made one trip to a supermarket to troll the cookie, ice cream, and candy aisles; then might stop at the Dunkin' in the same plaza for four, or even six, assorted thingies; then grab a loaf of specialty cinnamon pecan bread and pecan pralines at a local produce stand. In the past year, I've taken to stopping in the midst of a binge to dump some of it in a parking lot trash receptacle. I'm also a secret binger. I don't live alone, so I often eat all this stuff in my car. Hiding the trash that results is always a priority.  
29 May 19 by member: Miraculum
So, people who don't do that will say "Hey stop doing that!". Not really helpful... 🤦🏾‍♂️ I still do that. Don't see that I will ever stop doing that. I'm only 9 pounds above my BMI and have been that way for nearly a year. So I think I am doing fine :) I found what works for me. I let go of trying to do something I can't (eat like a normal person). What can you do? What DOES work for you? Just do that :) Good Luck! 
29 May 19 by member: adefwebserver
This sort of behavior is very effective at inducing self-inflicted humiliation and guilt that compounds the bloated, sick physical sensation and the eventual weight gain. A friend once confessed to me that he would go out with friends for a full meal and then stop at McDonald's for double bacon cheese extravaganzas, milk shakes, fries and onions rings, and huge sugared sodas. It's hard to imagine what some people manage to eat, day after day, to maintain hundreds of pounds of extra weight. However, from one binger to another, it's only a matter of degree. Such suffering! 
29 May 19 by member: Miraculum
I've been there. Do it more than I like. It's usually chips and/or ice cream. When I decided to buy chips it's with the intent to eat the whole bag within 2 days and the regular bag seems too small so I've been buying the party bag. I remember, many years ago I was in my 20's and I went to KFC and bought something like 12 pieces of chicken along with cole slaw and some biscuits. THEN I ordered 2 sodas so the clerk wouldn't think I planned on eating it all myself! Haven't done that in awhile, now I really don't care what they think. 
29 May 19 by member: Fritzy 22
If you normally eat healthy and well portioned meals, you may be binging because you feel deprived and then one day end up giving into your cravings and go nuts excessively overeating. But the fact that you stated you continue to go for more when you’re not hungry, could also be emotionally connected. A lot of ppl eat their emotions and it just may be what you’re doing during these binges. Sometimes other emotions can also cause us to self sabotage maybe this is your way.. You should document what you eat and how it made you feel after these sorts of binges. And find a healthy outlet for emotional stress. I wish you the best. 
29 May 19 by member: Fearfully_and_wonderfully_made
Also maybe along with healthy meals, incorporate some of your guilty pleasures here and there in moderation so that you don’t feel deprived and end up binging. 
29 May 19 by member: Fearfully_and_wonderfully_made
Food addiction. Recommend cognitive behavioral therapy with a good psychologist who specializes in helping people with addictions. 
29 May 19 by member: cannjensen
By the way, you started at the same weight as me 273? I can’t wait to make your kind of progress!😃👏You’ve come so far, and are so close to your goal weight. No matter how bad the day, or how big the binge,remember who you are and how far you’ve come! Don’t give up. You ARE deserving. You ARE worthy. 😘 
29 May 19 by member: Fearfully_and_wonderfully_made
I do this too, but on a smaller scale. I always crave carbs when I am depressed, stressed or under pressure. You can't help yourself until you figure out what is behind it. My last binge (about 3 weeks ago) was really about trying to die without actually committing suicide out right. Ate hot and now Krispy Kreme dough nuts, chips, honey buns, etc. When I finally figured it out, it was because during a moment of stress while dealing with my son, I ate a Little Debbie cake. That was it, the beginning. WHEAT causes me to be suicidal. Don't know why, it just does. Used to blame the mushrooms on pizza for it, but nah, they don't cause it. I do think if I could get wheat that was never "improved" it would not be the same.  
29 May 19 by member: SheaDlady
Sending you a big hug. You are very courageous to allow yourself to be vulnerable and share. I do agree that a good therapist specializing in addiction could be helpful. Do you know about the 12 step program Overeaters Anonymous? Many find it very helpful. Good luck. 
29 May 19 by member: QuinceBlossom
Thanks guys...I think I do it out of deprivation and emotions and self sabotage...I've suspected all three!!!! You're just confirming It by saying it as well! @Lotus - girl...if you told me I'd be this small some day I would have laughed!!!!! I still can't believe it most days...in the beginning it felt so overwhelming. I used to use online calculators estimating when i'd reach goal and obsess about reaching is fast...but eventually I stopped doing that and felt more at peace with losing slow because I found I beat myself up less if I screwed up and in the long run it made me more successful. I just took it day-by-day and set weekly goals and I kept setting mini goals like "I can't wait until I reach 250!!!" then "I can't wait until I reach 240!!" and kept setting new goals over and over and then before I knew it I was saying "OMG I'll be under 200 so soon!!!" and I went to Hawaii to celebrate when I reached that because I'd been 220 since I was 19 so I never had been there in my adult life...NOW I'm so close to goal and it seems so unreal...just taking those baby steps every day and then one day I could see the finish line!! Fat Secret is the BEST and the community here is AMAZING and have helped me so much!!! Good luck in your journey Lotus and remember the #1 key to success is not perfection, it's just getting up every single time you mess up and the sooner the better...never ever give up ever! <3  
29 May 19 by member: Sharons Victory
Yeah we go through things. When you’re done eating everything you will get it under control again 
29 May 19 by member: brianouthouse
Thank you for the encouragement! I will be here to remind you how far you’ve come when ever you feel defeated as well!❣️  
29 May 19 by member: Fearfully_and_wonderfully_made
Why do you think you need to COMFESS to anyone let alone the people here. No one is going to give you absolution and ten hail mary’s and make you feel better. Good grief, you didn’t kill someone, you just sidetracked your goal. Just get back at it. 
29 May 19 by member: Kenna Morton
You work hard and smart to reach your goals. And you are courageous to be so honest. OK, so you are not super-human. Welcome to the club. I think we all fail badly on occasion, but what matters is how we deal with that failure. I expect you will learn from this episode, make some smart changes, and move on. 
29 May 19 by member: Red Stook
Okay I won't ask why you want to write of the food you binged but I imagine you want us to tell you it's okay. And we will. My question is why were you doing it in the first place? You're a smart woman. You know it was self destructive. It wasn't one meal or one day. It was several days. Explore that. Either here or in private. What was in your thoughts driving for ice cream? I think if you find that answer it will be more beneficial. 
29 May 19 by member: FullaBella
I do this on vacation on occasion. Last April I came home 18 pounds heavier. You're not alone. I just brushed it off and got back on track. I think I lost the first 10 within 2-3 days and the rest shortly after. It's just a momentary hiccup. Just get back on the wagon. 
29 May 19 by member: -Diablo
And I know people hate me for saying it but I agree with Lotus, I really believe what helps me is a more flexible dieting approach. I've been dieting for 18 years off and on and it's the approach that finally has me on track much more of the time compared to restrictive dieting. Once you know you can have some things in moderation, they aren't the forbidden fruit that you want to splurge on. 
29 May 19 by member: -Diablo
Agree with guilty pleasures in moderation. They work best for me as a dessert. Doesn't trigger much of an unwanted reaction that way. 
29 May 19 by member: Diddlee
I have done this and still fall into this at times. Binge eating is an eating disorder. Which turns food into an addiction. You fell off the wagon. Just know that we are here to catch you and put you back on! 
29 May 19 by member: CrashtestDawnie

     
 

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