Time changes all things, even those that refuse to accept it...
So I am weighing in early, since I will be out of town, I would have loved to see where I was come Friday with this loss!! I added a historical weight as well, just to make sure I can see 100% where I came from. Its crazy for me to think back to just a few months ago, thinking that I could never do this, I could never lose the weight. I look at where I am not and am amazed. I am so proud of myself. I am normally a very self-hating person, but I look in the mirror at my jawline, my shoulder blades, and I am proud of that girl. She fought through so much, and still keeps fighting.
I didnt journal yesterday because the trip was up in the air, we didnt know if we could go and I just didnt want to share that yet. My mother in law got really sick recently, she contracted C-Diff, which is an infection in your colon and intestine. Worst case scenario, you die, or they have to replace the last foot of intestine and rectum, best case scenario you get better and live. She was really bad off, in the hospital for 3 days. We got her some high powered antibiotics and she seemed to be on the mend. the 10 days are up, and Monday, suddenly the troubles all came back. Severe diarrhea, stomach cramps, lethargy, all of it. We do some research, find that taking Imodium actually makes things worse, which no dr told us when we told them what we were giving her. We thought we would have to take her back to the ER. But yesterday, her color was back, she was not running to the bathroom, she seemed to feel better. We are thinking that, if she still looks good today, we will go. Its still kind of on the line, but right now, we are 95% sure we are going. Which is better than the 85% not going that we were yesterday morning.
I got some HaloTop Mint ice cream the other night, ate about 3 tablespoons and was satisfied, and it was so good. I dont know if it was because I hadnt had sugar in so long, or what, but it was excellent. I would say get some, just make sure you pay attention to the servings and stuff. I didnt eat a whole half cup, just a few bites and I was happy.
Im wearing a set of bangle bracelets today that I havent worn in years and they are actually kind of too big, they fall really far on my arm and almost fall off when I have my arm hanging down. Its nice to see theses kinds of things too, visual representations of weight loss.
Heat index is 105 today...I work in a warehouse, so here comes some water weight loss!
Today I will pray for traveling mercies, I will pray that the Lord keeps his hands on my family and any others who are traveling this weekend or anytime soon. I will thank God for the blessings of a new day, and more weight loss. I will thank Him for all that He has done for me. I will pray for continued will power and success. I will pray that my vacation doesnt mean the downfall of my weight loss. I will pray for the friends who are getting married, that He blesses their marriage and life. I pray that each and very one of us see our goals and should we stumble, I pray that He helps us back and on the path. In the sweet name is Jesus, Amen.
