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I haven’t been here in a very long time. I have been sort of plateauing for the longest time but also I was being lazy etc so I’m not sure if I can truly call it a plateau. Last year this time I got into this weight loss journey and lost 10kg. I want to lose a other 10. But looking at pictures is till hard. Sometimes I feel like where is the weight I have lost? My stomach is still a disaster. Yesterday i trained abs for the first time in a long time and my stomach was getting in the way and everything was difficult. It’s so hard not to beat yourself up when it comes to losing weight. It’s really hard. I look like nice and slim and average in clothing but when i show off my arms and legs and stomach it’s a different story. I wish I could spot reduce fat. I keep thinking wow am i ever gonna get to a place where I’m happy with my body? Cause working out and calorie counting is HARD! it requires so much discipline! I’ve come to the conclusion that although I don’t see myself going back to being sedentary and eating unhealthy, the only way you can ever be happy is you kinda have to try to love your body right now….cause what if i never lose the weight? What if i necer get to slim those particular places? Am i gonna hate my body forever? Am i gonna avoid wearing certain clothing forever? It’s hard. I am in a very difficult space right now as you can tell
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