davidsprincess's Journal, 07 Oct 21

Waiting for the plumber. Toilet has a weak flush and I hate it. Nothing more motivating for me to clean the house than to have a service/fix it person coming over. I refuse to not have it immaculate knowing deep down that they don't give a rat's ass and have to have seen many hoarders and God knows what else. And I am a big, fat liar. Did not go to the gym a single time this week. But I am looking forward to it. Probably doesn't seem like it- but I am. The problem is that if I am not at the gym by 6 a.m.- I have a hard time fitting it in- either due to no motivation or family stuff. And the problem with that is that a majority of the time I wake up at 3 a.m. and finally fall back asleep about 5:30. Frustrating and I think I will just have to push through and make myself go. I have always had sleep issues but used to manage to go to the gym every day so not sure I am trying hard enough. We leave tomorrow for our little getaway. Not taking the kids. Looking forward to it and just praying they will be safe while we are away. I worry about my kids all the time but being hours away if something happens takes it to a new level for me. My mom lives 3/4 of a mile away so... they aren't being left alone. I still get nervous. 😬 I am quite sure a hot tub outdoors with a scenic view will help me forget.