ladytanker's Journal, 26 Jul 21

I hope everyone had a great weekend and may the rest of this week go well for you too. I jump in today because I was doing a lot of thinking. Just wonder if it is me or is anyone else thinking or have thought this way. Well I can say that getting better, doing better still come to my mind. However it is like I ask myself the question, am I going to hard on myself? how do I really feel? when it come to this weight loss. Well I look and read about the success of other and wonder why I can't be as committed to something that at least I know have worked before. Why does this body fight me every time I want to do something for it. Why all this up and down, on and off thing happening? Just so many Questions. But you know today I'm thinking more about how I feel. No I have not reached my goal and yes I'm back where I started at the 1st of the year, Nothing new here. But I think I going to take a few day just to focus on this. I'm not feeling tired or upset because I've not accomplished my goal, as I should have by now if I stayed with it.. I won't give up on the thought of reaching my goal. I just don't want it to consume me, to the point that I find myself being disappointed when I do fall. I fall get back up. sometime I fall and it take me longer to get back up. At the end of the day I know I can do whatever I set my mind to do. I just need to do it, until then I have no complaint about how I feel. This is enough for me to be ok with myself for today. I'll keep moving....