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OK, 'good girl JMA" (I have to talk & reassure myself often now-a-days). I stayed TRUE to ME & TRUE to my woe through the homemade pizza & homemade gooey goodies (cinnamon buns). Luckily there was a friend there that is also watching what she eats & brought her food, saying she hadn't had breakfast & it was her breakfast (intermediate fasting). But she & I chatted a little while we were working and she also has similar issues to mine, as far as some foods triggering a craving and tendency to overeat to eat other things not on her woe. OH what a relief when someone else understands and we support each other. No one really made a big deal of our woe either, which was a relief for me. I don't like to call attention to myself or make anyone feel uncomfortable or that they shouldn't eat it (pizza & buns) since that is non of my business and it is their choice and most of them CAN control the eating & really may not understand my compulsive obsession with some foods. When I was younger I would have just eaten what was there, not said anything and continued to overeat though the night & maybe days later. Only to feel regret thoughout the ordeal. Day is not over yet though, My BFF & her friend & I are going to a drumming circle this evening and she asked if I wanted to go out to eat afterwards The drumming is from 6 to 7. I just said I don't want to eat past 6 or 7 anymore and left it at that. Also I am trying NOT to eat out since I really can't control what is in some of the food. She said a few times, 'oh I know and just wanted to let you know you are welcome to come with' I just said 'no, thank you though for the offer, but no'. I know she will bring it up again tonight. I really don't understand why some people can not just understand 'no'! I think if she does I'll just smile and said 'as I mentioned earlier, no thank you' and leave it at that! Oh goodness. I'm still fearful of other things that are going to come up soon. I have a gift card my grandkids gave me for us (me & my BFF) to go out to dinner on. We used it once but there is at least another couple dinner or lunches on it. I just have to stand true to my woe and order something 'light'. Then she (my BFF) extended her stay to be here over Superball weekend and she wants to have 2 to 4 friends over her place for the game (I'm not into football but will go) and she always has a bunch of snacks that are NOT on my woe out for finger food & OVEREATING. Chips & dip and cheese & crackers, & summer sausage, & probably some taco chips type of stuff, etc etc etc. Well I guess I'll go but will try to see if I can bring a crunchy veggie tray or something like that and hopefully stay away from all the other stuff, but I know she will notice and try to convince me to 'eat just one' or 'a little won't hurt' or 'you don't need to loose anymore weight' or 'you can just go back on your diet, tomorrow, or after I leave' or, or, or. I AM determined to stay true to ME & my woe and say, 'no, thank you' & 'I really can't control my trigger cravings right now' & 'I feel better at a lower weight' & 'it is after 6 pm, I really don't want to eat anything more than just a few veggies, I had my dinner earlier' OH ALL you in FS-Land wish me strength! Does anyone out in FS-Land have any suggestions? I think I'll also bring some diet cranberry ginger ale and have it on ice in a nice glass. I'm not much of a soda drinker anymore (just club soda & seltzer water) but I like it and it tastes like a treat since I don't drink it much.
OK, enough of my ranting. I'm just so happy I stayed true to my woe so far!
Take care to ALL in FS-Land :-)
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