Sharons Victory's Journal, 19 Jun 18

Thanks for all the encouragement and you guys pointing out that I've been down lately...I hadn't even realized how down I've been.

I'm not very in tune with myself...I can be depressed or upset about something and start acting out and not even realize why I'm doing what I'm doing...

I used to drink when I was upset but now I don't drink so I'm now eating...

After reading all your guy's responses I stopped and did a self check and realized I think I'm still upset over my dating life and the rejection I've been encountering lately.

The good news is that other parts of my life are coming together...I went and saw a college counselor yesterday to see about pursuing my passion of interior design and found out I'm only two semesters away from getting an AA in art and humanities. Might not seem like a big deal to some but I've had a rough life and dropped out of high school and went and got my GED many years later....one of my biggest regrets. I used to be a straight A student that played three instruments and then I dropped out...ha. But you can't dwell on the past...but me getting a degree, ANY degree, would feel like a sort of redemption.

Also, I want to pursue getting another degree after that...I'm just trying to check with work to see if they'll work with my schedule at all and am waiting to hear back...but if they say no I'll just look in to a different school possibly because my local one doesn't offer very much in the evenings.

Anyway...I only had coffee with two tablespoons of half and half this morning and haven't eaten yet today so I decided that I think it will be a fasting day.

I grew up religious and we used to fast and pray for spiritual reasons...well today my fast is for my health and mind and body and soul and I'm going to fast and pray for strength and maybe revisit my meals to ensure they're still enjoyable instead of eating the same thing for three weeks.

I got this peeps don't worry :)